The last few days have been quite stuffed. Excuse me for not making a post for the last two days. As I worked, packed and prepared the apartment (cleaning!:’)) for my subtenant my days were quite full and also my energy not enough for writing.
Subtenant? Why’s that? You may wonder. I’ll explain.
As my boyfriend is from Malaysia, I planned to go to him for an entire month. Several reasons came together, why I exactly planned to go for exactly this amount of time.
- job-related
As I am currently still employed, I can’t just decide how long I go somewhere. Therefore, I took 4 weeks (out of five) to still have one left, so I am not burning out during the year. This could very possibly happen, as it’s only february.
2. money related
So I was really lucky, when I posted my request for a subtenant during this time, and a dear friend texted me in no time. It worked out wonderfully and everything was set. I am very grateful, that during this month I don’t pay my rent for nothing. The apartment is still being used and I am not making a big minus business.
3. environment
I could also have taken just two weeks, no problem. But I don’t know if it even makes sense (but it feels like) I had a better feeling and a better conscience towards our environment, when I fly for four weeks and not only two. Because this is taking the chance to fly somewhere else (long distance) if I’d take another two weeks seperately.
4. mental health
Not only jetlag triggers me, but also I am doing it for my mental health in general. it’s just good to do a – in german we call it – wallpaper change. Different environment and climate, new people and other foods let me dive into another world, another me. And two weeks just aren’t enough.
Like that, I can really settle and enjoy this time. Figure out what I want to do. What I love to do. I love my jobs so far, but I do want to be self-employed, independent. I want to live on my own terms, not anyone should be able to tell me when I come to work, eat, take a break and go home. I want it to be my business, and I am aware that it needs self-discipline, but i do want to live on my own terms. This is what makes me happy and fulfilled. Don’t let anyone tell you what is good for you, or what is bad for you. You yourself know best. I am also not telling that being employed is bad for everyone. It needs both. But over time, I just recognized where I bloom. So I am going right after that.
Back to what I originally wanted to tell. Actually, there isn’t really anything specific I wanted to write down. I just started typing, and this is what came out so far.
So now on this beautiful sunny and warm afternoon,
I am sitting in a traditional swinging chair
in my swimwear I am indulging my own
in the warm and humid air
Listening to the winds and birds
and just enjoy these pleasant feelings
of happiness and gratitude
and I start to feel everything in tune.
3:45 p.m. 14th of february 2022,
Langkawi, Malaysia